41 - Mar 11 2018 - Reblog

11.03.2018

My little novel passed the 50,000 words today. I’m so proud of my bby. I’m expecting I still need about 40k more to go for it to be over, but I’m feeling very happy about how it’s going. Especially since I had some troubles with one of today’s scenes and I had to scrap it and rework the action into a previous one. Ah, the problems of not outlining correctly. But other than that little bump, I’m very excited about how it’s going.
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#tarot #witchcraft #grimoire #journal #Journaling #tarotreader #cartomancy #divination #divinersofinstagram #magic #healing #lightwork #amwriting

2 - Mar 09 2018 - Reblog

09.03.2018

Days seem to pass me by so fast. As if I didn’t have enough time to do everything I want to do, and I wonder if it is because I am not trying hard enough, or because I demand too much of myself.

Perhaps it is a combination of both.

Today I covered most of my to do list, and now I’m working on my writing. There’s a novel I want to finish this month, while I’m awaiting a few calls, and I was hoping to go at a 5k a day pace, but I had more meetings and appointments than I expected. Saturn is making everything so slow yet hectic *sigh*

So today I am only aiming at 3k.

Slow. Steady.
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#tarot #witchcraft #grimoire#journal #amwriting #novelwriting #divination #cartomancy #tarotcommunity #healing #lightwork #craft #journaling

3 - Aug 09 2017 - Reblog

I will now be using @alexdamien and will gradually cease to use this one (or maybe leave it for fandom. I haven’t decided yet). I will be following back most of the people I currently follow, although it might take me a bit.

689342 - Jul 08 2017 - Reblog

sirenfemme:

I’m ok. I’m gonna be ok. I’m gonna live a beautiful life and I’ll get to know beautiful people. I will create things of beauty and be surrounded by flowers. And I’ll love myself, and I’ll be soft, I’ll be kind. And I’ll be ok.

282939 - Jul 07 2017 - Reblog

dankmemedistributor:

838 - Jul 07 2017 - Reblog

sweetsappho:

Homosexuality is normal, natural and beautiful.

828 - Jul 06 2017 - Reblog

theowlandthekey:

A word to new practitioners.

We were all you once. No witch, no priestess, no cunning woman has come to be where they are without fouling up things along the way and making their fair share of mistakes. And while your Pintrest Witchcraft moodboard may be good fun (I’m serious here I have like 12), it’s not going to give you the knowledge you need to progress in this path.

Read Everything.

Now I do not mean this to say you should BELIEVE everything you read. Nor should you take anything as gospel truth. There are many paths diverging in this wood, and you have to find the one you feel most comfortable traveling down. Some are smooth paths, well trod and easy to tell from the brush. Others are bumpy and better handled by more advanced adventures. And some paths are utterly indistinguishable from the forest around them, easy to be lost on, and best handled with a guide.

Read Everything.

Read because the only way to learn what you want to know is to read. Take notes, put into practice, and do the hard work of making this a part of your life. As you read and study, and yes you are studying, you will begin to differentiate what feels right for you from what feel gimmicky and capitalizes on the current renewed fascination with the occult.

Read Everything.

3374 - Jul 05 2017 - Reblog

semitics:

One thing you Absolutely Cannot do if you’re a lesbian or bi girl is talk about what you find attractive about women around men. There’s really no way to win here because they’re either going to hypersexualize you or make you feel disgusting for your attraction to women, or both

14606 - Jul 05 2017 - Reblog

calilee:

boyfriend jacket !!

852 - Jul 04 2017 - Reblog

vergilius9:

After Maeglin’s betrayal, Morgoth launches an assault on Gondolin in secret.

627343 - Jul 04 2017 - Reblog

ikealanterns:

pleeeeeaaaaase don’t make fun of people for being overenthusiastic about their interests. if you see someone getting really excited about something and you think it’s a good idea to ruin their fun (and don’t think people don’t notice your eye rolls and side glances) you’re an asshole

22286 - Jul 03 2017 - Reblog

happyunicornperson:

universeofmemes:

Tweaked nature

MORE RAINBOWS. WE NEED MORE RAINBOWS.

114306 - Jul 03 2017 - Reblog

auntiewanda:

gemini–king:

weavemama:

you know misogyny is real and alive when men start making jokes about KILLING women for not wearing makeup.

Why would you even say something like that…

“Why do women wear so much make up they’re such vain sluts.”

“A woman seen without make up should be shot"

201667 - Jul 02 2017 - Reblog

cwote:

1. If it feels wrong, don’t do it
   
2. Say exactly what you mean
   
3. Don’t be a people pleaser
   
4. Trust your instincts 
   
5. Never speak bad about yourself
   
6. Never give up on your dreams
   
7. Don’t be afraid to say “no”
   
8. Don’t be afraid to say “yes”
   
9. Be KIND to yourself
   
10. Let go of what you can’t control
    
11. Stay away from drama & negativity
    
12. LOVE
    

15871 - Jul 02 2017 - Reblog

jumpingjacktrash:

bpd-anon:

dr-jekyl:

thejakeformerlyknownasprince:

It’s a question I see come up in this fandom again and again: How the heck did Animorphs books make it into school libraries and book fairs across the country to be marketed to eight-year-olds when they feature drug addiction, body dysmorphia, suicide, imperialism, PTSD, racism, sexism, body horror, grey-and-black morality, slavery, torture, major character death, forced cannibalism, and genocide?  

To be clear, I don’t actually know the answer to that question.  It is, admittedly, a little odd to consider, especially in light of the fact that Bridge to Terabithia gets banned for killing one character (much less several dozen), The Witches gets banned for having a character trapped in the body of an animal (without even going into issues of predation or body horror), The Chocolate War gets banned for having moderately disturbing descriptions of violence between teenagers, Bird gets banned for dealing with the realities of drug addiction, Winnie the Pooh gets banned for having talking animals, Harriet the Spy gets banned because the main character lies to her parents, and The Secret Annex gets banned because Anne Frank describes normal teenage puberty experiences throughout her diary.  And yet Animorphs was marketed to children as young as six nationwide, and (despite selling better than even some classics like The Chocolate War at its peak) no one ever bothered to burn those books or cry that they would rot children’s minds.  

If I had to take a wildly inexpert guess, knowing as little as I do about the publishing industry and the standards parent groups use to determine whether books are “moral,” I would venture to speculate that there were several different factors at work.

1. Grown-ups judge books by their covers just as much as children do.  For proof of that phenomenon, just scroll through the Animorphs tag on tumblr, any relevant forum on Reddit, or any old post that uses that stupid meme.  The book covers suggest that the stories inside will be silly, campy adventures about the escapist fantasy of turning into a dolphin or a lizard.  People don’t look too closely at the books with the neon candy-colored backgrounds and the ridiculous photoshop foregrounds, especially not when they imply a promise that the novels themselves will be the most inane form of sci fi.  
   
2. There’s no sex.  To quote the show K.A. Applegate most loves to reference: “I guess parents don’t give a crap about violence if there’s sex things to worry about.”  The large majority of books that get banned from schools are thrown out for having sexual content: the freaking dictionary was banned from California schools for explaining what “oral sex” is, And Tango Makes Three was removed from shelves because apparently married couples are inherently shocking if they happen to be gay, and the list of most-banned books in the U.S. is full of books which explain in perfectly child-appropriate terms what puberty is and where babies come from.  Animorphs, by contrast, never gets more explicit than Marco calling Taylor a “skank” or Jake and Cassie’s few stolen kisses.  The only mentions of nudity are implied (and even then only when the kids are first coming out of morph), and the most explicit thing we ever hear about Rachel and Tobias doing is staying up late in her room to do her homework together.  It becomes unbelievably obvious in retrospect that there’s a decent level of queer representation in the books (Marco repeatedly describing both Jake and Ax as “beautiful” or “handsome,” Mertil and Gafinilan, multiple characters casually morphing cross-gender), but it’s also possible to overlook the queerness if you don’t know it’s there.  There might be explicit autocannibalism in this series, but at least it never uses the word “nipple.”  
   
3. There’s no profanity.  Again, there’s a strong implication of profanity—Rachel and Jake especially often “use certain words to describe things” in a way that makes it incredibly obvious what they’re saying, and context clues tell us Ax says “fuck” at least once—but given that the strongest expletive that comes up with any regularity is “good grief,” this can act as an obvious (if dumb) heuristic for parents that a book is appropriate for children.  People love to count the swear words in Catcher in the Rye when describing why it should be banned (generally without, heaven forbid, reading the goddamn book).  Other works such as To Kill a Mockingbird have been banned for using a single word, regardless of context.  If a parent is looking to object to a single word or set of words as grounds that a book is inappropriate, the worst they’re going to find is half a dozen instances of “heck” and maybe a dozen of “crap.”
   
4. Some of the worst content is context-dependent.  As I pointed out above, at least five or six different characters (Tobias, Arbron, Alloran, Tom, Allison Kim) attempt suicide over the course of the series.  At least three or four species that we know about (Hork-Bajir, Howlers, Nartec) get largely or entirely annihilated.  However, in order to understand that any of that occurs, you actually have to read the books.  Not only that, but you have to read them closely.  Cates pointed out that some of the most disturbing passages from #33 are, in a vacuum, just descriptions of blinking diodes and weird hallucinations.  The description of Tobias attempting suicide is just a long list of mall venues that flash by as he zooms full-speed toward a glass wall.  Even the passages with Rachel threatening David (or carrying out those threats) don’t make much sense unless you know how a two-hour limit on morphing works.  For the parent skimming these books looking for objectionable content, nothing jumps out.
   
5. The books are, in fact, appropriate for children.  This quality is what (I believe) prevented parents like mine from taking the books away from us kids even after reading several entire novels out loud to us before bed.  The books contain violence, but they sure as hell don’t condone it.  They touch on subjects such as drug addiction and parental abuse, but they do so from the point of view of realistic-feeling kids and don’t fetishize that kind of content.  Most of the lessons contained within are tough—that there’s no such thing as a simple moral code, that people with the power to prevent atrocity also have the obligation to do so, that members of the hegemony aren’t actually all that special, that the world is a scary and violent place for most people who have to live in it—but they’re also important lessons, and good ones to teach to children.  I would be comfortable with my own children (assuming I had any) reading these books at the same age I started reading them, in first and second grade.
   
6. You have to understand the fictional science to understand (most of) the horror.  Trying to describe some of the most horrifying passages in Animorphs is like “and then they flushed the pool for cleaning, but the pool was full of slugs!” or “but she explained to her son that she had to have a parasite in her brain so the parasite’s friends wouldn’t be suspicious!” or “and then the hawk ate a rabbit, as hawks are wont to do!” while one’s non-fandalite friends stand there and go “… so what?”  The laws of Applied Phlebotinum in the series turn those earlier moments into a war crime, an assisted quasi-suicide, and a loss of identity, respectively; however, you have to understand the laws of applied phlebotinum in order to know that.  For anyone not reading closely, the horror can be overlooked.  For those of us who are reading closely, phrases such as “host breeding program,” “fugue state,” “eight minutes too late,” and “the howlers are all children” (or any mention at all of people being injured while taxxons are in the vicinity, for that matter) are enough to chill your blood.  But again, for that to happen, you actually have to read the books.  Which we can assume most of the people skimming for curse words do not.
   
7. Some of those exact same premises wouldn’t be horror at all if handled by a different author.  K.A. Applegate subverts the “wake up, go to school, save the world” trope; normally premises that feature teen superheroes fighting aliens are considered appropriate for all ages (e.g. Avengers Assemble, Kim Possible, Teen Titans) because they feature bloodless violence and gloss over the question of whether aliens are people too.  The utterly arbitrary standard that kids should be allowed to see violence but not blood allows for justification of movies like Prince Caspian, Night at the Museum, and Ghostbusters to feature characters getting murdered in all kinds of ways in PG-rated movies.  “Violence” and “sci-fi violence” are two different categories according to the MPAA rating system; guess which one gets a lower rating.  Of course, there’s a crapton of science showing it doesn’t make the tiniest bit of difference to kids whether or not they see blood, they’re still gonna learn violent behaviors and potentially be traumatized, but again where the arbitrary standard persists.  Therefore, if most of the premises of Animorphs books don’t sound horrifying, they must not actually be horrifying.  Right?
   
8. The books are almost as light as they are heavy.  Part of the reason I have comfortably loaned my copies of the early books to friends with ten-year-old kids is that it’s not primarily a downer series.  Animorphs aren’t R.L. Stein books, which always end on (the implication of) the protagonist’s death.  They’re not uniform horrorfests like Dolls in the Attic or Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark.  Applegate doesn’t fetishize violence the way that Cassandra Clare and Ransom Riggs do.  The most-quoted passages from these books are the ones that are funny, not horrifying.  These are stories about the joy of aliens discovering Volkswagen Beetles, about the wonder of being able to fly away from one’s life, about friendship and the power of love being enough to make the gods themselves sit up and pay attention.  The whole saga tells the story of six kids sacrificing more than their lives to save their families, and of how that sacrifice brings down an empire.  I suspect that many parents were either paying so little attention they didn’t realize these stories could be classified as battle epics or as kiddie horror, or else were paying so much attention that they concluded that this series is a battle epic worth reading.  

Then again, maybe there was a whole other set of market pressures which accounted for the lack of censorship which I don’t know about.  If so, the economics side of tumblr is encouraged to enlighten me.

Speaking from my experience as an (ex) public librarian here, I’d say that all of those are valid points.  But, ultimately, I think that they - and a few others I was going to add (around the value of science fiction and the lack of formal study or requirement to read) - come back to a single factor: 

The people most likely to complain are least likely to read.

I’ve never encountered a wowser who was well-read.  And by well-read, I don’t mean ‘well-versed in the English Literary Canon of Dead White Dudes’.  I mean someone who has read, who reads, who takes enjoyment from reading.  Someone who reads because it is a pleasure to do so.

Someone who doesn’t read will simultaneously under and overestimate the impact that a book can have on its reader.  That’s human nature, cognitive bias at play.  In particular, we have interplay between:

• The Dunning-Kruger Effect
  People who don’t have the skills to properly engage with a text will overestimate their ability to do so, and underestimate others’
  
• The Third Person Effect
  People perceive that media has a greater impact on others than themselves
• Trviality Bias
  People latch onto minor, incidental details of something because they are easier to understand.
• Empathy Gap
  People are very bad at judging their own emotional states, and the states of others

In other words, wowsers who don’t read imagine themselves to be expert readers when in reality they’re not engaging with the text very effectively at all.  What they’re doing instead is latching onto trivial controversies - a mention of sex, a swear word, talk of the Dreaded Gays, Are You There God, it’s Me Menstruation - which trigger a visceral, emotional reaction.  And then, because they imagine themselves to be well-adjusted experts, they presume that everyone else will have an even more extreme reaction.  Ban that Book!

But because they don’t have the skills to engage with the text in anything more than a trivial fashion, they don’t understand subtext.  At all.  Anything that isn’t obvious, there on the page (and some of the stuff that is) - that shit just flies right on over.

Meanwhile, librarians tend to be both expert readers and good judges of reading competency in others.  And being experts and good judges (these two things don’t necessarily go hand in hand), a good librarian knows that reading expertise, and the ability to engage with a story beyond what’s just written on the page, is something that is developed over time.  A reader can only engage with a book to the extent of their expertise.

An eight-year-old who reads Animorphs and thinks it’s a rollicking adventure with cool aliens is reading at an appropriate age level.  A twelve-year-old can read the same book and realise it has themes about suicide and talk about it with their friends will be reading at an age-appropriate level.  An adult can that same book and realise that it’s not just suicidal themes, but that the text has a densely layered narrative that’s fundamentally about what it means to be human, both physically (through the continued and sometimes extreme use of body-horror) and metaphysically (is it human to sacrifice?).  And that adult will be reading at an age-appropriate level too.  Same book, appropriate for multiple audiences, separated by their expertise in reading it.

Books and their readers are self-selecting.  Wowsers select ignorance.

Animorphs was banned in one of my school libraries. Naturally I just got them at the public library

i’m deeply grateful to have a word for that sort of people. ‘wowsers’ is so evocative.